6 Months

It has been six months since this sweet little boy joined our family.  I can't imagine life without him!

Can I get a pause button, please??

An Addiction

I'm addicted.  I'm addicted to soda and have been for a while.  At work, we have a soda fountain that is free for all employees meaning I have unlimited access to my drug of choice.  As a working mom with a baby who doesn't sleep through the night, that glass of caffeine each day was a blessing and a way to get through the hours and stay awake.  But it is not healthy for me (or for baby after I did some research) and it is time for me to stop.  Cold turkey.  No more soda for me.

Part of me is very sad about this.  I seriously love the stuff and wish so badly that it was a magical drink that did your body good.  But alas, it is terrible for me (both diet and non-diet) and I know this.

The rest of me is proud I finally have the strength to make this decision and put my health first.  I will be better off both mentally and physically for making this choice.  While some people might think this is a simple choice and it's stupid that it should even be hard for me, others will understand the addicting side of soda and relate.  It's a bit bizarre to associate so much happiness with a beverage, but that's what I've done and need to move forward from now.

Today's Weigh-in: 162.2

And a photo of me with my little boy since I haven't posted one yet:

I sure love this little boy!

Hard to Get in the Game

Uggghhhhhhh.  Getting back in the mentality of losing weight sucks!  It's so much easier when you are already on the bandwagon and doing things out of habit.

I weigh the exact same as I did last week.  No progress.  And I only have myself to blame.

My excuses that I used throughout the week:
"I'm too tired."
"I don't have time."
"Family is in town."

But in reality, those are just excuses.  The truth is that I didn't place priority on myself and I wanted to make the unhealthy choices because they are more "fun."  Eating healthy and working out isn't currently "fun" to me, and until I make the switch in my brain and get back to finding joy in choosing to be healthy I won't be successful.

Trying again this week...fingers crossed for better luck.

The Reality

Finding motivation to lose weight and be healthy after having a baby is hard.  Unexpectedly hard.  All I want to do is snuggle my baby and spend as much time with him as I can.  I work from 8-5 and when I come home, I want to spend my time focusing on my son so that he knows that mama loves him.  However, I also want him to have a mom that is healthy and can keep up with him.  He's already trying to crawl at 5 1/2 months so I know this boy is going to be a mover!  And I don't want to be the mom sitting on the sidelines watching; I want to participate!

So I've enlisted help.  My sister and I are going to be doing weekly weigh-ins to motivate each other.  I'm going to focus on "making the better choice" and moving my body.  

Starting weight: 163 lbs

Weekly goals: 

• Move:  Crossfit.  Walk. Run.  Whatever.  I just need to move 3X this week.
• Eat: Clean eating, no fast food, limited treats and soda.  I need to kick my soda habit in a BAD way.
• Weight:  I have some bloat from this past weekend.  I hope to weigh around 160 come next Monday.

I'll update you next week!