Thank goodness for the power of the mind over the power of the body. If it were up to my body, I wouldn't be able to do a lot of the things my mind wants to do.
For instance, last night I hopped on the treadmill with a goal of going for 45 minutes at around a 5.2 mph pace. For me, this involves a short one minute warm up and then running at somewhere between 6 mph and 5.5 mph (depending on the beat of the music!) until my heart rate gets too high and I have to slow down. I was able to complete my goal through sheer willpower alone. After running 2 miles, my legs were burning and my lungs were screaming and I had a very odd sharp pain behind my shoulder blade. However, I wanted to finish the run SO bad and on my own terms, not my body's. So I powered through. I used every trick in the book I knew to keep myself going.
"Becky...you can make it. Just ignore everything else except that little blinking light that is telling you how far you have to go to make it another 1/4 mile..."
"Becky...you made it another 1/4 mile. How about just one more? Then we'll see how you feel..."
(I say this knowing full well that I will be running a whole half mile more after finishing the quarter mile, but perhaps I can trick my body into not knowing that so it won't rebel...somehow this logic works for me)
"Becky...a 1/2 mile isn't realllly so long. It won't take more than a couple of minutes. What's that? You know that it will take at least 6 minutes judging by our current pace? Nahh....just ignore those numbers. Only a couple minutes more!!"
This continues for a long time. But ya know what? It worked. I finished my 4 miles (I only stopped to catch my breath once and hopped right back on!) and then cooled off for another 1/2 mile. For me, this might actually be a personal best.
I felt like a champion.
I haven't felt like a champion in a long time.
Yay for a much needed self-esteem boost!