Wednesday, September 8, 2010


I'm full of fear today.  Why?  Because of the past.  Right now I am so motivated to lose weight and I feel like nothing can stop me.  I see victory on the horizon, and it is close and attainable.  I'm completely focused on my goals.  So why should I be afraid?

Because I've felt this way in the past and still managed to fail.  How does this happen?  Does anyone else have this fear?

Two years ago I started my weight loss journey after weighing in at 178 lbs.  I worked out daily (Jillian Michaels book's program) and lost a lot of weight.  I got down to 152 within a few short months right before I went to Hawaii.  I was feeling great.  But then I got comfortable.  I was no longer within the "overweight" category.  I was healthy!  So then I stopped working out...I stopped counting calories...  Guess what?  Flash forward to this year and I'm back up to 168 and climbing.

How do you overcome the cycle?


  1. I can relate to this. I injured my knee doing Hood to Coast and I can't run right now. It's frustrating, depressing, and I've been grumpy about it. Why? Fear. Fear that I won't be able to run again and thus gain back all my weight. :(

  2. Wow. That's a tough one. You have to doing doing it for reasons that will last. Maybe viewing things more for a fitness stand point than a pounds on the scale view?! I gained A LOT of weight with my babies and each time I had to remind myself that I didn't gain that weight in 3 months and it wasn't going to come off that way. I did keep running through my pregnancies which helped keep the habit of daily exercise going but the weight still came anyway. I had to eat for two! (okay not really but being preggo was an excuse to eat more than I should).
    Anyway, I like to say, If you change the way you look at things. The things you look at change. Maybe if you change how you are viewing the process. Maybe if stop seeing an "END" to your process and start seeing just the journey that keeps going as long as you do, you will see that each day you ARE successful! That fitness and good health are something you choose each day not just until you hit a certain number. throw out that scale. Just right better and move That is something you CAN do!
    Did I help?

  3. oy! I mean eat better and move!

  4. Lisa--I'm glad you are listening to your body and not running on an injured knee. You will heal up so much faster by taking it easy. I'm glad I'm not alone in my fear, but I think you will be able to run again and race Hood to Coast again (if you are feeling crazy enough!) :)

    Shelly--Thanks for checking out my blog (and for being honest!). You are very busy so I wouldn't feel bad if you didn't end up posting it on your blog. And thank you for your advice--it was exactly what I needed to hear. I'm trying to distract myself from caring about the weight. Instead, I am trying to focus on goals that I set up for myself. That keeps me motivated and keeps me focused on being healthy. Hopefully it works this time around! And by that I mean it WILL work this time around because I am in charge of my destiny! :)

  5. I too fear that I will get to where I want to be and then slide right back. I guess thats where I start lacking motivation is when I get
    "comfortable" and don't do things I know I should. I keep reminding myself One Bite and One Decision at a time.

    If anyone can do it, I know you can!!